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RP Logs! / Closure, Pt 1
« on: March 04, 2025, 11:53:22 am »
# Closure, pt 1
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## John LeTour / 2025-03-04 01:51:00 | 13268

*To the living, we owe respect; to the dead, we owe only the truth* - Voltaire
Home (L.A.)

"I just want some closure, that's all."

The woman sitting across from John at his kitchen table looked like she needed some closure, all right. She had the raccoon-eyed face of someone who only slept thanks to pills, and a voice ripped up with grief. She'd come to John by way of one of the few people in the department who did believe John had been raw-dealed, but wasn't going to stick their necks out too far over it. But they had stuck said neck out just far enough to toss John this bone: *There's a lady who is trying to find out if her husband ran off with someone or if he actually got put in the ground. It's not much but it'll get you working.*

*Yeah, give me her number.*

A couple of phone calls later, and now Denisha Thawne sits in John's apartment. She brought receipts: credit card statements showing her husband's Visa had been used a couple of times after he didn't come home, photos of the man (big guy, arms as big around as legs), some things she'd been texted possibly by mistake that had raised her suspicions.

"I'm going to start with some statistics," John says, "just to give you an idea of what we might be looking at. It's been said that in around one-quarter of all marriages, there's at least one discernible incident of infidelity. By contrast, the number of spouses in a marriage that go missing for no visible reason and are never seen again is ... maybe a fraction of a percent. In other words, it's far likelier he set things up in advance to leave. For all we know the card usage was a red herring. People who *want* to vanish don't use cards. So ... let's open with the assumption he's ghosted you for another woman, since there's already a lot to work with there."

"Yeah," the woman said, swallowing to try and clear her voice (and failing). "Yeah, there sure is."

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## John LeTour / 2025-03-04 02:01:33 | 13269

*To the living, we owe respect; to the dead, we owe only the truth* - Voltaire
Home (L.A.)

"This may be a lot to ask," John says, using his best *can you do something for me real quick?* "cop favor" voice, "but would it be possible to see your house and any of his things? There may be some more details among the stuff he left behind that might -- "

"If you think it'll help. Does it have to be now, though?... The place is a mess, and ... "

"I won't judge. I promise. I had a shovel to push everything into the closet here before you came by." His laugh is, thankfully, echoed by her. "It'll be *really* helpful, honestly. And ... to be super honest about it, if you tidy up, you might end up getting rid of something that matters."

She's still hesitant, but she does say yes, and she does let him follow her back to the house. Judging from the Acura she drives, and from the numbers on the card statements (both the available credit and the revolving balance), they weren't exactly hurting for money. And she made decent enough money on her own that even with him out of the picture she's still able to keep up payments on everything. He had been fired from his job at the custom-kitchen place after not showing up and not returning calls for a week.

Someone has to be either really disenchanted with their life to do this, John thinks, or really dead.

She did say she wanted closure. You give it to her even if she has to wash it down with more tears.

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## John LeTour / 2025-03-04 02:13:04 | 13272

*To the living, we owe respect; to the dead, we owe only the truth* - Voltaire
Home (L.A.)

The house isn't the pesthole John has been led to believe. Everything new; the only real signs of disarray are in the kitchen, where the stove top and surrounding counters show some grease splatter from a recent meal. The husband's man-cave is in a "bonus room" off the living room, with its own big-screen TV and PlayStation 5.

"He'd sit in there," Denisha says, "and I'd sit out here, and we'd hardly say ten words a night to each other. My *birthday* was two months back; he didn't even remember *that*.  And then there was the *flowers* -- "

It's like a river's trickle that turns into a lava flow. John just lets her spit it all out -- all the ways he drifted away, all the things he neglected and then got angry with her for being reminded of, all the signs of a marriage with feet of clay (and ankles of straw).

**or at least that's what she says**

That's the worst part about cop life. You want to trust people, because it's easier to help people who can be trusted. When you can't trust them, they're just another *problem*. And one of the ways people deceive you is by larding you up with what *sounds* like the truth, and maybe is, but is just designed to get you to not look somewhere else.

Something behind and around all her words -- as far back as when she first started laying out her case to him -- has been eating at him. And what's weird is that it's eating at him in a way that reminds him of **the desert** -- not what happened there but how it felt. The way all that felt like he was looking into what's just behind everything when you tear it away.

**there's a good chance she's not telling me the whole truth**

No, more than a good chance; there's a big fat chance she's leaving something out of the picture entirely that I'm not supposed to see.

"Can you -- " John fights to sound unruffled by what his own deepest senses are telling him is wrong. " -- tell me what happened the last time you saw him? I know you said it was here in the house, but ... just run through it for me, here, so I can see it. If you know what I mean."

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## John LeTour / 2025-03-04 02:23:26 | 13273

*To the living, we owe respect; to the dead, we owe only the truth* - Voltaire
Home (L.A.)

"So, I came home -- and he was there, in that chair, like he always is, and -- "

Everything beyond that John hears only as a bunch of distant mouth-noises, like that teacher in the Charlie Brown TV cartoons. It's all blotted out by this *certainty* bubbling up from inside him, from the same place as all that desert ****:

**she's lying and you know it**

"She's lying and you know it," Petey Mavreedy says.

He's there and not there at the same time, somehow. John's hearing his words loud and clear, as if the man is standing behind him and speaking at the back of his neck. But there's no sign the woman sees or hears anything; why would she? Everything Petey is and comes from, everything John is drawing on now, is as removed from that woman's world as an ant on this world is from the surface of the moon.

John lets her finish her bullshit story, and gives her a practiced cop nod.

"What d'you think, man?" Petey "says". "You think she knows he bought it somewhere and is just looking to pin something on some chick he was dicking on the side? You think maybe *she* did *him* with some help and is throwing off the trail? You think maybe it gets worse, even?"

*Not now for god's sake--* John manages not to snarl that out loud.

"What I'm going to do next," John does say out loud, "is start with some other people your husband had contact with -- his employers, friends of his, that sort of thing -- and find what I can. Those charges on his card, I'm also going to -- "

"The credit card company already looked into that," she says a little too quickly.

"I can draw on different things than they can." He keeps his tone even.

"They don't even think that was him."

"Why don't they think that was him?"

"Because they said the -- the purchases aren't the kinds of things he normally used on that card. I just want you to know they looked into that, so maybe it's not that useful. That's all."

**bullshit detector goes to eleven**

*"They get stupider every year, don't they, John?"*

(Petey, my god, you *would* be laughing your ass off if you could see this for real.)

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## John LeTour / 2025-03-04 02:28:59 | 13274

*To the living, we owe respect; to the dead, we owe only the truth* - Voltaire
Home (L.A.)

There were more not-so-pleasant pleasantries, more promises from John that seemed to inspire more brushoffs than encouragement. At last John gets back in his Toyota with the weird little squeal that only manifests when backing up and heads home.

The phone rings the second John pulls out of the driveway. Petey. Of course.

*"You picked up on all that, didn't ya? You knew she was full of it. Maybe you didn't know what she really WAS full of, but you knew the odds weren't good that she was leveling. You saw all that, right?"*

"Is that part of this whole Tales From The Darkside journey thing too?"

*"One tiny little piece of it. Just a smidge. Juuuust a fraaaaction. But there's tons more. And it isn't all about guessing if someone's b.s.ing. But that's sure one useful bit of it, yeah?"*

"I'm still seeing where this thread goes, you know. I suspect I'm not getting more than my first payment. But I'm still following up."

I'm still following up, John thinks, because I just realized I'm like her in one respect.

I want closure.


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RP Logs! / Phone Calls From The Dead, Pt 2
« on: January 25, 2025, 11:08:01 am »
# Phone Calls From The Dead, Pt 2
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## John LeTour / 2025-01-25 15:30:13 | 11742

*To the living, we owe respect; to the dead, we owe only the truth* - Voltaire
Home (L.A.)

There was no ceremony as such. John reported to the chief's office, signed one more piece of paper, received official notification his sidearm and badge had been surrendered, and walked back out onto the street.

That was it? he thought. Well, that was enough. I haven't been a cop for months now anyway.

The next step mostly involved the phone. Back at his apartment -- which seemed increasingly bare and hollowed-out even if nothing had actually changed -- John sat at the little half-desk facing the window and began dialing numbers. Colleagues, all of whom had left before he had, and thus might well still think well of him. Connections here and there. People who might be able to set him up with a gig of one kind or another.

The biggest step was getting the ducks lined up for licensure to be a P.I. -- you had to pass a background check, but signing the papers meant he'd left the department on officially good terms. No charges filed, not even a writeup for bad conduct. They knew he would want those things, and they had been right.

Right as he hung up one call, the phone rang again. A number that was all zeroes.

I've gotten a call from this number before, he thought.

"Petey," he said into the phone.

"He-e-e-y," cackled back a voice that was both familiar and chilling.

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## John LeTour / 2025-01-25 15:38:20 | 11745

*To the living, we owe respect; to the dead, we owe only the truth* - Voltaire
Home (L.A.)

"I followed your instructions," John said. "Although I'm guessing you know that by now."

"Yeah, although ... see, where I am right now, the way things work, it's *always* better if you tell me about these things in your own words. Even if I know them. It's important you tell me about 'em on you own. That way I know you're on the right page."

John nodded (stupidly, he thought; what, is he going to hear my head rattle through the phone? the rate things are going he just might) and started to talk about everything he'd encountered. The laundromat. The café beyond. The hints about a larger world. All of it, with as little editorial commentary as possible on his end. Just facts. And also the facts about taking the offered deal, about how that afforded him a clean exit from a very dirty place.

"I'm not going to ask how you might know all this anyway," John said, "because I'm guessing, like you said, where you are, you can't really say."

"Naah, yeah. It's complicated. I'm in this weird situation where I can only say things a certain way, so that you take the action you need to take. So you see things the way you need to see them. Because you see everything differently now, right? Even just what's out your window?"

*Is that an instruction?*

John leaned forward and looked through the double-paned window, down one story at the street below. Evening, twilight-streaked concrete, palms, streetlights flickering on. Nobody loitering outside, no idling cars, no sudden movements at other windows the moment he moved.

But like everything else he'd been seeing since he came back out of the laundromat, it was all somehow different. Different in the way Raoul del Valla had said it was all different. del Valla had done a tour of duty abroad and come back home to be a cop. Or tried to. He couldn't even look at a city street in a "good, quite" neighborhood without it being haloed by PTSD. Who's going to come out of that doorway? What is that thing up on that rooftop, if it isn't in fact a satellite dish? Everything squirming, needling at you, sticking in you and staying, twisting like those quills they use in acupuncture.

Everything felt like that now to John. And not just because of what happened in the desert. That shuddering, struck-bell set of shakes had faded, and was now being replaced with something else, something a whole lot deeper and more reverberant.

"Dude, you there?" Petey's voice crackled in John's ear.

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## John LeTour / 2025-01-25 15:44:11 | 11746

*To the living, we owe respect; to the dead, we owe only the truth* - Voltaire
Home (L.A.)

"Five and five," John said. "Sorry. I thought you were trying to tell me something."

"I'm *always* trying to tell you something," Petey laughed. "I'll cop to that. Here's what I'm going to tell you now. You're on the right track with setting up shop on your own. But that's just going to be the day face, okay? There's a night face, and you're not gonna want to show it to most people. That's the *real* work you're going to be doing. And you wanna make sure your real work doesn't slop over into your day work. Everyone else isn't gonna be ready for it. *You* aren't gonna be ready for it. Because if you let that happen, it's going to hurt *you* twice as much as anyone else."

"Is this like with Catherine?" John said.

"Sort of. More so. Worse."

Catherine. John had dated her briefly. She had the kind of cool steely personality John figured could stand being married to a cop. She didn't want to get very close to anyone, that was the problem. John had more real need than she had real want. And the one time she had seen anything about what John's work was like, she took two steps back and never completely stepped back in again.

"I got directions to someone else in this new circle," John said. "You probably know who. You think it's a good idea to follow that lead?"

"You got directions to *two* people," Petey said, "and both were gonna reach out to you. But if they do, reach back. Those are gonna be your people now. You better learn to live with their type. You're their type, too."

"One more question." John tried not to feel or sound foolish. "Any chance we can make this into something more than a phone call sometime?"

"Ehhh...." John could just about hear the other man tilting, then shaking his head. "Complicated. Tricky. This is the best way for now. -- Listen, I got to drop something off. Stay frosty."

John had more, but it was cut off along with the call.

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## John LeTour / 2025-01-25 15:51:45 | 11748

*To the living, we owe respect; to the dead, we owe only the truth* - Voltaire
Home (L.A.)

For minutes after that all John did was sit and watch the rest of the dusk turn into nighttime outside. But he wasn't looking at the darkening horizon or the deepening shadows. He was trying to see something that seemed behind his vision itself, the way the squirming patterns of dots behind one's closed eyes try to resolve themselves into light of their own. Something to be seen beyond seeing.

It was a faint, but tangible, version of something he had felt all in a rush in the desert. Not fear, not panic, not grief, but the sense of how life turns and flows into death. And -- under that -- the sense of how death turns and flows back into life. It was not something he needed the violence of the desert to know about; it was wending and bending all around him now, quietly, the way snatches of music from another room assemble themselves into a melody you recognize even without all the notes heard.

The heart beats, John thought. The blood moves both in and out. But we're not the heart; we're the blood.


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RP Logs! / Take The Deal (John LeTour)
« on: January 15, 2025, 12:00:27 pm »
# Take The Deal
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## John LeTour / 2025-01-15 00:51:29 | 8096

*To the living, we owe respect; to the dead, we owe only the truth* - Voltaire
Diner (L.A.)

The fact that John was asked to meet Estabon at a diner, not at actual police HQ, told him this wasn't going to be the most formal thing in the world. Maybe it meant there was something on offer, but only under the table. And that in turn meant something John was not going to savor.

He didn't order coffee. He knew they had tomato bisque soup and he'd been craving a cup of the stuff ever since he got word they'd meet here. It warmed him up in a way coffee didn't.

"John," said the other man. Estabon barely came up to John's chin, but this little mustachioed fellow had been the source of worlds of terror for cops throughout the department.

"Is there something on offer?" John said. If the other man wasn't jollying up or making small talk, no reason to do the same thing.

"This is me offering," Estabon said, "not the department. Because I can speak for myself before they speak for themselves."

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## John LeTour / 2025-01-15 00:57:48 | 8097

*To the living, we owe respect; to the dead, we owe only the truth* - Voltaire
Diner (L.A.)

John didn't reply, just put his spoon in the cup and stirred the parsley sprinklings and croutons into it.

"The word inside," Estabon went on, "is that they don't want you back inside. Not at a desk and not anywhere, really. They have all the reasons in the world to do this, not least of which is Detective Mavrides's family. Their wrongful death suit was dismissed but as you can imagine that has only made them more resentful."

"All I'm hearing is old news," John said. "I thought there was an offer in here somewhere."

"The offer is this," Estabon said. "You leave the force and take a *three-fourths* pension, up from the two-thirds admin-leave pay you are currently drawing. This will be recorded as a voluntary retirement, so there will be no marks against you -- "

"Not officially." Not like it mattered.

" -- and with enough time and changes in administration, they may reconsider, but I would scarcely consider that worth pinning hope on." Estabon shifted in his seat. "I am laying all this out for you now because I have it on good word that by the end of the week they plan to dismiss you anyway. If I come to them with this before then, they will take it. Of that I am certain."

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## John LeTour / 2025-01-15 01:03:26 | 8100

*To the living, we owe respect; to the dead, we owe only the truth* - Voltaire
Diner (L.A.)

John blew on the soup and downed some of it before fitting his next words together with care:

"I didn't believe for a minute," he said, "that it would come down to anything but one of those two things. Either I leave, or they throw me out a window. Or off the roof. I would have walked out myself if I hadn't been stupid enough to think all those bullshit rumors about what happened in the desert would blow over. Or at least been refuted by the higher brass. But no, I guess they were short on scapegoats that month. -- So what now if I say yes?"

He had barely finished saying those last couple of words before Estabon produced folded pages from the inside of his jacket. John was practiced enough at reading such things that he could simply slide his eye down the middle of each page and get the gist of what each paragraph said. Especially the one about how he would agree, on pain of the loss of his pension, to refrain from disparaging his former employers or divulging information about the conducted investigation into his misconduct ...

"No **** way." John flicked the pages back at Estabon; they slid across the counter, and only Estabon's quick movements kept them from spilling across the seat and under the table.

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## John LeTour / 2025-01-15 01:09:49 | 8103

*To the living, we owe respect; to the dead, we owe only the truth* - Voltaire
Diner (L.A.)

"John -- "

"No. **** that buy-my-silence ****."

"John, the other side of that is they will also promise not to embroil you in any further legal action that might arise from *future* investigation. You really should have read the other pages. Sign that and yes, you have to keep your mouth closed, but you'll be indemnified."

"What if I don't want that? Did you ever think of that?" Tomato soup had been a bad idea; his stomach was now curling in on itself. "Did you ever think maybe I'd rather have even the bad things out in the open?"

"John -- if you think radical demands for transparency and truth will save you here, they did nothing for you before. Why would it be any different now?" Did that man ever blink? "You've already avenged yourself, so to speak, on the men who did this to you and your partner. You gain nothing by trying to make the world believe anything. You must let this go, John."

For a moment Estabon thought John was going to spit at him, hurl the remainder of the soup in his face -- one of any number of explosive things, from the way that muscle on the side of his neck corded up. Then the cord unwound, along with John's sagging shoulder, and he reached for the pen that had been sitting next to Estabon's coffee cup the entire time.

So I won't be a cop anymore, John thought. Big **** deal - it's not like I've been one for some time now.

Because I know now I'm something a whole hell of a lot different from all that.

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